Sundays !

Dear diary ,

its sunday morning , well not morning anymore.Its2.30 and um all upset and sad about how fat um getting , i unnoe how much i weight ! .. cuz my machine broke down! .. um taking dese herbal life pills , but i dun take em regularly ! .. dey are such a pain .. i didnt take one dis morning cuz i juss dun wanna take em ! .. i feel like taking all de control pills together and dats it ! i wanna join gym cuz den i'll be doing sum kinda xercise and i wont just be sitting ! .. wen i was in school i never used to gain weight c uz dere was sum kinda walkin n running and all happening ! .. but dis year , ahhh .. everytime i talk to omer abt it , he tells m e abt diet !? .. um not even over eating or under eating ! .. i eat proper meal once a day and den i eat fruits and all if i get hungry cuz i dun like takin dat meal replacement ! .. sheesh .. i dun like it wen ppl dun understand my probs , not deir fault ... its not easy to understand me ! ..

so yea dats why i got a new blog now ! .. we'll always love each other okay bloggie?! .. okay .. <3 .. yea i sound like a psycho .

so now me n omer are talkin abt my school assignment ! .. he forgets things so easily ! .. I UNNOE HOW ! .. mani wants me to go to stores wid her before class starts but monday my dad is off ! .. so he'll prolly come to pick me up .. hmm i unnoe wha um gonna do ! .. khair , life is soo weird now ... i juss wanna go skinny and THATS IT ! .. is dat too much to ask for!? .. wha will i have to go thru !? .. dis is soo annoying ! .. how is dat my fault if my phuphoo and all are fault , why do i have to carry on dose genes ! .. WHY ? i noe i can join gym nexx year but i shud be controlling eveything now ! .. i swear i feel like crying now , no um already crying .. tears are alrady falling ! .. i hate feeling ugly ! .. i know i dun look ugly buh i am gainin so much weight and no body seems to be caring ! .. i unnoe wha um suppose to do ! . life is juss a mess !

ahh and boring songs ! .. and um cold ! .. may b i shud wear socks n sweater n all !

lol omg , i thought i lost dis page -- buh its here
wohoo
omg omg omg , omer is gonna call my uni and check stuff for me , and um gonna start doin xericises n all . he said he'll help me
I LOVERZZZ HIMMMM

HE MAKES EVERYTHING SO PERFECT FOR ME !!!